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I was able to run for 35 minutes (a total of 3 miles) nonstop again today. It honestly gets easier everytime I go running. I think the hardest part is to motivate myself enough to get outside and go for a run, but once I start I can’t seem to stop! I wish I was seeing more progress, I always want the quick results. My biggest issue is food… I LOVE to snack around. What really gets me are crackers, or really anything salty for that matter. Put a bag of pretzels or crackers in front of me and I can’t seem to control myself! I need to find things to do to occupy myself instead of heading for the kitchen. I won’t have any results if I keep on snacking. grrr… I wish this was so much easier.

I was able to run for 35 minutes today without stopping, for a total of 3.1 miles! I haven’t been able to do that for over a year. I only have 4 more weeks before I leave for college, and I really want to buckle down and tone up. My goal by the end of these 4 weeks is to be able to run up to 5 miles without stopping. Tomorrow I plan on pushing and trying to reach the 4 mile mark, or at least 45 minutes of jogging non-stop. I am finally starting to like working out, and what I conquered today has given me a real endorphin rush. It really takes at least a week or two of commitment to an exercise program to start loving it and getting comfortable with it. Just push yourself because I know everyone can succeed in their goals!

These past two weeks have been utter hell. I was randomly threatened by one of my guy friend’s girlfriend to never speak to my guy friend ever again (I didn’t even know he HAD a girlfriend); then I found out that my friends-with-benefits is dating someone and never told me, but I should have known better; and I just recovered from my face ballooning out because of my wisdom teeth extraction. But an upside… I haven’t let my weight get away from me. I haven’t had the erge to binge like I usually would, especially under these circumstances. And I pushed myself to jog 30 minutes non-stop this past sunday, a feat that I haven’t accomplished in about a year. Pushing myself in my exercises feels fantastic, and really gets all the anger out. It’s just been a triple-wammy and somedays I feel like I don’t even want to get up, but I do. It’s time to move on. I’m shipping off to my very first year of college and a brand new start very soon, and I’m more then ready.

Well it has been 3 days since I got my wisdom teeth RIPPED out of my face. I am so swollen. I think I’ll add a pic of myself in all of my puffed-faced glory. My diet still consists of jello… smoothies… and more jello. I feel so weak, but the swelling is in fact finally going down. I think I lost another pound. I’m slightly worried that the weight is going to come flying back with a vengence when I can eat solid foods again. Has anyone gotten their wisdom teeth removed? Because I just want to know when this swelling will be totally gone.

I have never been in so much pain in my entire life! I had my wisdom teeth removed yesterday and so my face is very swollen, I can barely open my mouth, and I’ve eating nothing but jello and yogurt! The medication I was given made me throw up 5 times. Silver lining? well… I lost 3 pounds! But I DO NOT recommend getting your teeth removed for weight loss success. I feel just horrible. And I’ve been having cravings for foods I usually never have cravings for… like cheeseburgers. Looks like pea soup instead… Hope everyone else’s endevours are going well. ByE!

In 3 days I am forced to go on a 2 day liquid diet… no, it’s not some kind of crash diet. Actually, I’m getting my wisdom teeth extracted and I am NOT looking forward to it. After the liquid diet, I move on to soft foods… so all the apple sauce and mashed bananas I can eat! O goody. I’ve bought a couple containers of V8 in order to get some kind of nutrition in me… but I suspect that I am going to be starving by the end of the liquid diet. I just need to stay focused, and ease back into healthy eating.

I went on a long walk with my mom today, who is looking fantabulous right now (she joined Fitzone and has been dieting). I feel so much better just stretching my legs. I’ve been trying to get back into my regular jogging routine, but it has been very difficult. I seem to get really bad cramping. But my goal by the end of the summer is to be able to easily run 3 miles, if not more. I think I should start making a list of goals in order to keep me motivated. Once I compile all my goals, I’ll put them into my next entry. Good luck every one!

My diet has been so uneven and bad, I dont know what to do. It’s so hard to change my bad habits. I have the problem that if it’s in front of me, I’ll eat it. How do you train your brain to do otherwise? I feel like I’m at my wits end.

Tomorrow, I was supposed to have a date… but things happen I guess and men are stupid (just kidding ;)  ). So I think instead of sulking I will have a kind of spa day, just relax and enjoy having a me day. Maybe even get some reading done. I used to binge on these types of days, but I need to change that. Wish me luck!

I have been concerned lately with not only my weight, but my mother’s as well. My mother just started working out and eating better, but her mindset seems scewed. She only eats a yogurt for lunch, sometimes only a couple pieces of fruit for breakfast. She is constantly criticising the way she looks when I think she is absolutley beautiful! And I think it has rubbed off on me. Back in my freshman year of high school, when I had lost the most weight at one time, I was slightly annorexic. I have overcome that, but I can see where it may have come from. I’m not saying my mom is annorexic, but I worry. She doubts herself when she hasnt lost any weight in a week. I think her body is storing food because she eats nearly nothing during the day. I just dont know what to do.